frist day back to school after break, but of course it sucked. i feel like crap and i dont know how to tell someone to leave me alone with out hurting them a lot, and if you know me then you understand my situation because i can not stand to see people hurt. so please if you have any ideas of how to tell someone to leave you alone with out hurting them let me know. the other problem that i am having right now is i have been working really hard on this yoga project that i am doing but the thing is that i am the only person in my group of 4 that is working hard. why do i always seem to have to do the work??? why do i care as much as i do? i care and will try to help someone even if i shoul dnot care about them to the point where i start to hurt myself. it kills me to see someone hurt but i am killing myself slowly from the pain and guilt that i collect from others. but i can not stop taking thier pain away for when i see them smile for no matter how brife a second i am happy. for the moment things seem woth the pain. so when does careing become hurting and hurting become caring? im just so confused as to why i can not stop caring even when i should hate. i should hate for the pain they caused me but i still care and do not what them to hurt in return. but i bring pain no matter where i turn. so the question becomes is a demon or angel traped inside or some wierd half bried??? all i seem to do is screw up and hurt. i just hurt a person who has been there for me since he met me. so i think it is about time of me to bow my way out.